A Walk in the Park

Brandi and I are as ready for this surgery as anyone could be. We spent some time alone last night when we went and saw Juno. My parents are watching the kids overnight tommorow. Brandi will have the support of my sisters Becky and Kristy during the operation. I'm renting some movies tonight that I'll watch while I'm laid up for a couple days.

I'm not scared of the surgery. I am more scared of getting the IV put in while I'm awake than the surgery while I'm asleep. My biggest fear is waking up after the surgery. I've been hearing stories of people waking up from the drugs, acting like crazy people, cussing and yelling. Most people would probably be praying that they dont find that the cancer has spread, but my fear is waking up cussing out the doctor that just helped me. I think the reason I have no real fear going into tommorow is because I have all the confidence in the world in modern medicine and the doctors that will be performing the operation. It's a walk in the park. At least that's how I feel at this exact moment. I'm sure the day after the surgery I'll be squeelin like a pig because of the pain. Brandi seems to think their going to have me doped up for a couple days. We'll see.